i could so easily fall in
to our pattern
my yearning
your wanting
our desperate attempts for connection
though we both know it hurts us both.
neither of us walk away unscathed
why keep playing with fire
why is it so hard to resist the allure of you,
your sirens call, beckoning me to wreck my ship on your rocky shores as i've done so many times before?
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you won't end me
but you keep coming close
nearly pulling me under
into a desperate cycle that always hurts us both
clawing for moments of beauty amid infinite pain
knowing we're the cause and the source of both