Jan 161 min read

let me nestle in the space under your collarbones

i'd crawl underneath your skin, nestle in the space underneath your collarbone or snugly between your ribs watching your heart beat...

Jan 161 min read

love at 20.

closer pull me in closer crush me with the weight of your expectations my expectations the roles we're supposed to play but forget that...

Jan 161 min read

Please, just be honest

i want you to be honest with me brutally, completely, honest in a way that lays you bare. then exposed and vulnerable, i want you to see...

Jan 161 min read

warm breath like smoke in the night sky

eager for the crisp chill of fall to settle into my bones. my body's at home in the dark seasons, as if i've been bred for long nights...

Jan 162 min read

on nights like this.

on nights like this i wish i had a pickup truck, one with an open bed. like the one you used to have, ridges of the hard metal underneath...

Jan 162 min read

overcoming the war that sometimes lives in our bones

"there's no reason nobody should have to die over land or resources," I confidently told my dad at 15. He condescendingly laughed me off,...

Jan 161 min read

heartbroken for gaza at naptime.

her hands cradle her child's head, or at least that's what it looks like from the picture. the same gentle curves my own hands take when...

Jan 161 min read

don't wanna miss a thing.

i used to sit in the backseat of my family's station wagon with my head resting on the window, looking longingly as i internalized the...

Jan 161 min read

please, don't.

that's why it feels so bad you can tell you can feel my attention surge at carefully worded messages, my heart swell at things we have in...

Jan 161 min read

noticing.

so many nice things go unnoticed that's why i like to notice i like to notice the little details that nobody thinks about anymore, the...

Jan 51 min read

evergreen/deciduous

Our love isn't a sweeping declaration of eternal love, or a promise to disappear into a life of never-ending sacrifice. It’s presence....

Jan 52 min read

nostalgia/healing

If anyone ever asks why I still listen to the music I did when I was a kid, or why I'm so excited by the anniversary shows that give me a...

Jan 52 min read

bev.

bev was a ball of light. a friend to everyone she met and beloved by many. she was complicated, cruel at times, and hard to pin down. bev...

Jan 51 min read

all he has to do is hint

all he has to do is hint and i'm off to the races building playlists and writing stories, inserting myself in deep moments of longing i...

Sep 26, 20231 min read

mom

tl;dr: RM got free coffee, she thinks as a result of healing.

MUSINGS

adjL thoughtfully abstracted, meditative